i'm gonna tell you anyway.

1 - i like the natural state of man: naked and free. if i had it totally my way, i wouldn't have to draw the curtains dammit.
2 - if i'm home alone and cranking up the stereo on a musical cd, i will pour my bleeding heart and cracked soul into singing all the crying chick parts (for instance, fantine in les miserables).
3 - i need a lot of sleep and, when given the chance to sleep, will actually konk out for hours on end. part of this is because i wallow in my dream worlds.
4 - nausea and dizzyness are the worst kinds of illness. i can grit pain but please dear god, do not make me nauseous. i've had enough of that to last past the next five thousand lifetimes.
5 - i totally have an idealized image of the macho man in my head and i judge appearances of guys accordingly. it's why i like christian bale and not ashton kutcher.
6 - dear god take away the addiction that is vh1. some of their shows piss me off (that weight loss show? ugh.) and some of their shows will not relinquish their hold on my person...i do nothing else on the i love 70s, 80s, 90s marathon days.
7 - rousseau sucks. as does aristotle and, to some extent, plato. john locke is good stuff.
8 - my ultimate hero is, and will probably always be, malcolm x.
9 - most likely it's a product of growing up in the states, but i want to visit mosques and churches as much as i wanna visit temples. something about places of unadulterated worship that yoinks on my heartstrings.
10 - most likely a product of growing up in so cal los angeles: i live in a mentality that leans more towards some new age principles than any other structured world religion. or maybe the environment only exacerbated my innate tolerance of differing perspectives.
11 - not that i don't get defensive and bitchy when i think the other person is wrong.
12 - then again, it also depends on who the other person is.
13 - people like churchill give me hope when i read about people like alex the great.
14 - i don't fricken care what you say, revenge of the sith is flawless.
15 - there is also nothing wrong with the perfection that is abe lincoln's writing. his word combos have made me cry.
16 - romeo is a wimp. as is hamlet.
17 - i love my mother's personal smell. she's always so clean. i despair of ever being as good-smelling as she is.
18 - this past week i met a mechanic who reminded me of my dad before he succumbed to the Dark Side of The Force.
19 - yieah it's true goddammit: there is so too an energy field called The Force.
20 - i read once on someone else's blog that they wished they could fly so they could take pictures from any angle. now that i have my camera, i know what they mean. especially since i'm so damn short.
21 - i never, NEVER, wished that i could be someone else. even in my lowest moments of existence. i'm too vain to wanna trade in my goodies for other people's used body parts.
22 - i sincerely believe that samuel l. jackson would pull off an excellent performance of me if there ever was a biographical film of my life to be made.
23 - i've been waiting to rewatch robot jox for, like, forever.
24 - who the hell knows why i'm so in love with tie-interceptors.
25 - i clean out my boogers regularly. in the shower. by picking my nose. with my fingers.
26 - on the other hand, i think i clean out my ears way too thoroughly because it actually hurts to hear different pitches now.
27 - used to be terrified of dogs and cats. now i'm just sad that i don't have a puppy or kitty to poof down in front of the telly with.
28 - not that i'm still not sad that my one pet goldfish (named abraham lincoln) died after we moved him from the jam jar into the bigger fish tank. *sob*
29 - the neighbors downstairs smoke a lot and it pisses me off. get the Fuck away from me you cancer ridden vermin(!!!!).
30 - i can go on and on and on [and on] about star wars.
31 - am enamored with the guy in the latest corean-dubbed-in-mandarin drama i watched: dae jung geum. like, who can resist that delicious piece of muscle-bound sensitivity?!
32 - it annoys me no end that people query after my well-being. it's unfair but i can't help feeling the surge of leave me alone, i can handle myself Just Fine that comes with every are-you-doing-okay. please. just. stop.
33 - i feel like i'm endlessly repeating my life story to people because they either A) weren't paying attention the first time i told the story because they don't care anyway or B) stuck on individual points without seeing all the other details because their perspectives are so damn different from mine. thus, i feel that venting and complaining to friends or the like to be a waste of energy and much prefer to keep my own counsel.
34 - i was tickled pink when my cousin told me she likes jarjar.
35 - if i don't watch myself, my constant use of the put-down comment will become a bad habit. even if it is true that some people deserve nothing less than such.
36 - will i ever get the opportunity to spend a night in ramses' pyramid?
37 - is cairo and malaysia really a wretched hive of scum and villany??
38 - i'm a hypocrite. not like you ain't!
39 - not a hypochondriac though.
40 - it's like i'll never be able to get rid of the callouses on my feet dammit.
41 - sure thing i've got ethnic pride...it's why i always pick the chinese when playing seven kingdoms 2 and why i watched real world's seattle season.
42 - sometimes i'm afraid that i'm so far behind socially, economically and educationally that it'll scar my future irreparably.
43 - then i think about my brainpower and ability to reason and despair that i've the intelligence to comprehend my many lack thereofs.
44 - then i help someone do something or eat haagen daaz strawberry ice cream and feel all better.
45 - the only reason i look like i've got decent sized boobs is cuz i've a remarkable bra (like, it's the power of the underwire people).
46 - terrified, terrified, of paper cuts. ow! ow ow OW!!!!
47 - my first cartoon crush was aladdin from the disney feature movie. oh shut up.
48 - sometimes i step outside of my consciousness and hear my voice talking out loud...and i wonder: who is this stuck-up knowitall?!
49 - when i die, i wanna be cremated. then have my ashes scattered somewhere. there'll be no praying to a jar of my remains on a tiny shelf.
50 - i believe jesus lived. whether he's christ or not is up for debate.
51 - i think buddha lived too. whether he's reached nirvana and all that is also up for debate.
52 - i've always liked the story of the snails gathering on buddha's head to shade him from the heat of the sun while he sat meditating.
53 - and i like all the magdalen theories regarding her relationship with jesus.
54 - i don't think i'll ever lose my enamored obsession with walt whitman.
55 - listened to john william's soundtracks for star wars and schindler's list the other day...and it's true that so much of his works sounds similar.
56 - the first movie soundtrack i ever fell in love with is michael kamen's score for robin hood: prince of thieves.
57 - will always miss jerry orbach and john paul II.
58 - will always have a hard time dealing with missing my dad before he went to the Dark Side.
59 - what is it about turtles and ducks that make me so damn happy????
60 - am trying to give up my need to hear praise from my peers.
61 - i look at so much of the digital images i've made and wow, does much of it sucketh.
62 - it's a terrible fault of mine to be so impatient with my mother.
63 - i wish i had more shoes. even though i prefer to not leave the house.
64 - need to wean myself free of my control issues. it's not so much an obsession with perfection as much a craving for unlimited individual freedom.
65 - there is totally such a thing as too much or too less of something. unless it's devoting an entire 120gig hard drive just for installing games.
66 - i talk like a valley girl. like totally.
67 - life can't suck that much if one owns a computer monster like mine.
68 - coke is better than pepsi.
69 - smelly people suck.
70 - every once in a while it's imperative for my good health to wallow in sweat, dirt, and mud.
71 - the dry sun of los angeles is doing murder to meesa skin.
72 - if pushed, i will come up with a star wars quote in answer for every situation.
73 - i'm inordinately proud of winning a game of star wars trivial pursuit against a bunch of guys back when i was waiting in line for episode 1.
74 - always at a loss on how to translate elves into chinese when explaining lotr plot to my mother.
75 - i don't understand why the adults around me persist in asking the same questions about dad over and over again. people, my answer is still the same answer as last time...!
76 - i didn't use to refer to the dictionary and thesaurus so much. these two books are part of my psyche now.
77 - not that my vocabulary is any more spectacular.
78 - i. hate. essays.
79 - why can't tests be oral?!
80 - for that matter, why can't we go back to the tutor system of socrates' day!?
81 - people who like playing the devil's advocate are pretty fucking annoying.
82 - i used to love it when the people downstairs cooked so much garlic that the smell wafted into my rooms. now it's slightly gross to be saturated in such.
83 - people have commented that i use sentence fragments or get lost in run-on sentences. like, really??
84 - i'm still wondering if i scared away wil wheaton from the one time i met him.
85 - i hate it that i get slightly shy and start talking too fast when meeting famous or intimidating people. whatever happens to my fantasy of being cool like bond?! james bond?!
86 - still waiting for the perfect day in disneyland to happen. and by god, it will happen in this lifetime.
87 - still have a hard time believing that orlando bloom is as old as i am.
88 - on the flip side, i've never felt my age. dunno if that's due to escapism or just plain disconnection with society's view.
89 - i-tunes sucks. but i'm too lazy to find an alternative.
90 - why in the world do people like watching movies on their comp? that small screen...ew!
91 - then also, why do people like watching movies at home? the mob at the theater is an experience worthy of soaking in imo.
92 - in the summer, i always feel like my hands and feet are dirty.
93 - am i gonna regret posting this list after i post it?
94 - i like stalking people more than actually interacting with them. watching them while they're unawares is so much more satisfying.
95 - a cousin discounted my knowledge of chinese politics the other day. predictably, that annoyed me. while i don't know everything (i still have trouble keeping all those chinky names straight), i know more than just a little. we all make assumptions about other people...but at least i don't throw the more demeaning assumptions into people's face. pooh.
96 - it's a great mystery to me why i love grandpa so much and can forgive him pretty much anything in spite of his massive character flaws.
97 - while i can't ever be patient with grandma these days.
98 - i worry that i don't put enough blame on myself. it's like i'm letting myself off too easily.
99 - i don't think i'll be leaving my mother to her own devices any time soon. no matter how much i may bitch and complain.
100 - wtf. who needs a hundred blah blah blahs anyway.