neither here nor there

i left the house this morning feel all cool and stuff because i was wearing this new psuedo-wrap top (psuedo cuz the wrap parts don't actually tie but are stitched together on the side). while settling down in my car, i realized that dammit! my boobs are too small to fill out the top, and consequently, my bra shows if i lean over even just bit. argh!!!! managed to snag a pin-type thingie from a co-worker and now i've been spending the morning all depressed that the pin is boring big ole holes into the delicate linen fabric. sometimes the small things in life really are a big piece of suck.

last night i was too lucky and caught the second half of dracula II: the acension. fark yieah for corny titles of craptastic movies! anyway, i love that movie. i love the red-headed chick lead, the gravelly voiced handicap villain, the gaunt vamp with le horrificly common accent (but of course!), and the fact that jason scott lee is a chinese guy playing the part of an italian demon priest name uffizi (wtf!?!?!?). for the first time in a long time, i just might get my ass out to hollywood video and rent the sequel on dvd. just to see what happens. i've fallen sucker to the hokey love story and graphic-novel plot. werd to the slick!

you know, if i tried to break it down, i couldn't for the life of me understand why i'm so into star wars. i love tie fighters and gonks but that love is more for cool-looking objects than some deep-seated obsession. so the way i figure, if i can't explain the love and yet am still "all into it" it must the truest type of love. the kind that's so deep you can't fathom its origin -- that it's easier to just accept it as is. funny then how that love never translates into a desire to actually exist in the star wars universe. of all my mindless fantasies and crazy dreams, i've only ever wanted to live in the lotr universe. badly. very very badly. why am i talking about living in unreal places? i dunno, but for some time yesterday morning i was stepping through a sense of longing for a place i've never been to before. i so wouldn't mind living at place like ecthelion.

i somehow, sometime, spilled boba tea stuff onto my calendar blotter and now the neat freak in me is annoyed. bah~