surfeit wisdoms

HITUP #1...
"professor" george: dreams are for suckers!
me: [damn straight!] dreams are for suckers. goals are for people who Keep It Real(TM).

HITUP #2...
i sure do react slow sometimes. often takes me more than a couple moments to realize that someone snuck a fast one past me...or even a slow one (har. har. har.). while scratching and slapping a crap load of file labels today, i had a bit of quiet time to wonder about that brain lag. and you know what(?), i think i've got it. while it is true that i'm often not too bright on the uptake, it's also partially due to the fact that most of the time i'm not looking for people to be mean to me. it's not that i don't know that people can be mean...cuz duh, i only need to look at my own relations to get that. rather, i've a tendency to believe in the fundamental good of the general public -- no matter how often i'm proven otherwise. the other half of why i miss people low-balling is cause i myself don't live with the intention of low-balling anyone. the lifestyle of the snobby tolerant dictates a certain level of blindness towards people's hatred of me...i'm too blase to see much. and i think i'm okay with that.

having said all that, today's realization that someone actually detests me is unusual to take in. being truly despised upon! wow. weird. i'm a big enough deal for someone to waste negative emotions over. honestly though, i think she's just too wacked in the head -- thus it isn't true hatred. hatred borne of misconstrued reality is interesting.

HITUP #3...
and finally: she's not quite in the class of the loveable variety. unless you like rabid little girls afflicted with gigantism.