it's somewhat of a shock to compare how i am now to what i was all the years before. this time last year i was depressed, pointless and above all, stagnant. this time the years before i was just lost and stupid. it's not as if problems are any less crazy right now than before, or that i have any less disasters just waiting to happen compared to, say, may 1998, but for whatever reason i feel so much more ready to deal with all this shiz today. late bloomer h'indeed.